Involuntary Suicide Signal

I found something i can't share with my girlfriend. It tore me apart not being able to tell her, but i really don't want to tell her. It is something i brought apon myself. It isn't the end of the world either, though i wish it was. I have been running from this problem for way too long, it will be nice to not have it hanging over my head. It really isn't a massive huge deal, but it sure feels like it. Sometimes i just hate living, and feel like a failure. I don't think i am cut out for life. None of my life goals in high school have come even close to happening. This is a depressing blog entry. Well the one good thing is that there is nowhere to go but up. I hope i can't get any lower.